I think I forgot how to have fun

The Lord has called me to a three month time of REST. No social media, no worship team, no coaching or counseling, just complete rest. I desire to document some of this journey. I also was encouraged to pick one day a week for Sabbath. Yes, as Christians we should already be doing this but are we? I haven't. With being on the Worship team on Sundays and Monday evenings I truly have not had one day of complete rest in quite a while. I tried it maybe last year I think but it didn't stick. I had no idea how much I strive. This past Friday I gave it a try and it was stupid hard. I don't even know what I like to do for fun.

Do you know what you like to do for fun?

All I could think of doing was going to get a coffee and taking a walk outside. I love me some coffee and getting it at local coffee shops. So, I drove to Guante Cafe and bought myself a white chocolate lavender iced coffee with cold foam. I got this to go and set out to find a park since it was so nice out. I remembered that there was a spot by the river I could go so that is what I did. I caught up on a few videos I had on Marco (you need this app in your life) and I took in the beauty. The way the sunlight hits the water is just breathtaking. It reminded me of the worship with the word set we did at River House of Prayer just the day before. We sang out of Psalm 24:1-3. EVERYTHING in the earth is God's. We then just sang of creation and how big God is.

This great big God spoke the universe into existence and yet He knows every strand of hair on my head. Like what?

So my first Sabbath was a little rocky because I found myself wanting to do housework or feeling guilty for feeling unproductive. Yet, resting is extremely productive and I have a feeling if I keep this up I will have great revelation on how beneficial resting truly is.

Ok, now how is no social media going?

ughhhhhhhh.

Today is day two and oh my goodness what an eye opener it's been. How much time do I waste on social media daily? I don't know because I refuse to look at that thing my phone wants to send me letting me know. I turned off my notifications a few days before my official start date and then today I logged out and deleted Instagram from my Home Screen. I am still uncertain what to do about Facebook because I am involved in a few groups where communication is given. Any way, it's been difficult letting go. I am talking to myself like I am recording a video for my Instagram story. I go to take pictures to share and remember oh yea.... Nope. It is just wild this habit that has been created. Last evening I had a moment in my emotions and wanted to turn to scrolling so I didn't have to feel all of the feels and I really felt the Lord say come sit with me in your emotions. Let's face them together and talk it out so you can release them quicker instead of running away and stuffing them down. WOW was that hard.

I have a feeling I will be sharing lots of things I am learning. I will be learning what I like to do to have fun. I will be learning a lot about nature and God's creation. I really like being outside. I really like the sun. I really like to dance. I have a new found love of being barefoot. Heck, maybe I'll visit new coffee shops and make new friends.

Come along with me, friend. I have a feeling this is going to be a lot of fun!